Yay!

I love my boyfriend!
He makes me happy.
(the blog before this...he posted it)

Anyways, practice sucked today.
It started raining.
And people were in bad moods.

I need to stop worrying

REASONS I SHOULD STOP WORRYING

1. CLINT SAID ITS ALL GOOD.


2. WORRYING CREATES WRINKLES


3. WORRYING MAKES YOUR BRAIN SWEATY


4. WHEN I WORRY I DONT TLK IN ENGLISH SO IT SOUNDS FUNNY


5. CLINT SAID ITS ALL GOOD!

STOP WORRYING!! ^SEE THEY ARENT WORRYING^

So I tried.

I talked to Clint about the fading thing.
It was at like 9 in the morning and I was half asleep, but I still did it.
But he said something that made me wonder....
"dont worry cause we cant control the future anymore than the weather"
what does that mean??
Roosevelt said that he was saying that he was saying we might not be together for long.
should I listen to him??? I really need that answer.
Clint also said "it will all work its self out"
What does that mean???
I'm so confused right now.
If Roosevelt is right then I need to start preparing myself for a world of hurt.
I love Clint. Like really love him.
Yea I was hurt with other bf's.
But not this kind of hurt.
I really don't want Roosevelt to be right.
I will just see how the next few days go.


Band camp starts tomorrow.

so many things running through my head.

soooo....im not really sure what's going on.
me and Clint seem like we are fading, but
that could just be me being paranoid.
i really hope it is me being paranoid.
that would kill me if I lost him.
I wonder if I should talk to him....good or bad idea???
if I do...I'll wait a few days to see if things change.
He has been out of town for a week and it has driven me crazy.
and he has barely talked to me, but i understand b/c he was with family.
I dont know.
I don't want things to fade!!!

any ways, tomorrow is going to be fun.
i'm going to see Harry Potter 6 with Zach.
and then marching band meeting!
i cant wait for band camp.
i am so ready!
i just havent done ANY of my school work.
crapola.

this wasnt very interesting.
i need to stop thinking.

Please!!

Just grow up!!!
Is it really that hard???
I guess it is for you.
Jeezzzz.
What you think is funny....
is not normally funny to other people.
Sorry.

3:50 am posting...

So i'm sitting here talking to Ansley on AIM.
I feel kinda high right now.
I have to get up at 5:30.
I might just not go to bed.

Me and Ansley are talking about mostly marching band.
and how much we want to MURDER Ola!

Now she is talking about how she is in love with Emma Watson.
she is crazy i swear!

DANGIT!!! I keep forgeting to turn on my straightener.
let me go do that......
ok i turned it on.
finally.

So I am meeting the girl, Rachel tomorrow.
She was on Crown guard this past season.
Ill post tomorrow saying what we did.
I can't wait to see what she has to show me and the advice I can get from her.
I never thought I would be so excited to learn.
Oh wait...it's band stuff.
Of course i want to learn it.

Blah....I dont know what to talk about now...



DENY THE PUMPKIN!!!


SAY NO...

TO PUMPKINS!!!!

Deny the pumpkin.


Say no to pumpkin, kids....it will only eat you.
i promise.
its bad.
very bad.
very,very bad.
SAY NO!!!!!
...deny it............NOW!

What if....

What if I choke out on the field when fall comes around?
What if it not all it cracks out to be?
What if my summer work doesn't get done?
What if my classes are harder than I expected?
What if I slack off like I did this year?
What if he goes off to college and loses his love for me?
What if the turkey really does drop?
What if he finds someone else?
What if we drift apart?

I don't want any of that to happen.
I hate it when I think about these things.
It always gets me upset.
I have one more week until my summer is over.
I think last night was the last time I will see him for a while.
I probably will see him before he goes off to college.
I just miss him a lot.

I don't want school to start.
But I want band camp to start.
I don't want to do my summer work either.
Gahhh...I really need to stop thinking.

stupid.

so i didnt think it would upset me....but it did.
why do it that way?????
grow up!
maybe it was for the better.
i hated the way they acted.
ugh.

any ways,
my cousins are coming in tomorrow.
its been a year since i last saw them.

so i only have a week and a half left of summer...
a week and a half left of Clint being home....:'(

today was a good day until now.
i hate thinking.