2010!!!!

It is here.
This is my first blog post of 2010!

I have started this year off great!
And i want it to stay that way!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

almost there..

a year and a half until I am out of this house!!!
I just want to get out.
That's it.
I need my own life.





Oh, and I wish I could tell people what I truely feel.



end of story.
the end.

I'm not obsessed.

So while I am waiting for my movie to load I just decided to post something.

Everyone I know (other than Kristen) goes to school with their boyfriend.
I don't. And honestly, I am glad about that.
B/c if we did, we would have gotten on each others nerves.
And it would have killed me if I was stuck at school by myself after he graduated.
But I have realized I do not need to see him everyday.
I have gone a month without seeing him before.
It sucked, but I survived.
Yes I love him and I love pending time with him, but if we were stuck up each others butt, then We wouldnt last.
We have our own lives to live.
Someone is trying to get in between us, but I am not letting that happen!
I care about him too much.

But any ways, exams were this week.
I got a 94 on my physics final.
an 88 on my spanish final.
I'm not sure about my 2 band finals yet (probably an A).
a 95 on my history exam.
Idk about english yet.
and a 68 on my math (grrrr, not happy)
I'm mad about my math grade b/c I had a REAL A in that class without the 5 points.
But now I don't. I have an 87.

I am not too happy with my final class grades in any of my classes except for band.
I guess I have to try harder next semester.

So I am offically on break. 2 weeks baby!!!!
I really hope 2010 is a good year.

What I have decided on.

So it is exam week.
I have 3 exams tomorrow.
I haven't studied yet, but I will.

But I have decided to back away from "you know who".
I am starting to get obsessive and I am worrying about stupid things.
So maybe backing away will help.

I had a heart to heart conversation with Susan on the way home today.
She has opened my eyes to a certian relationship.
So now I have some things to thing about.
I would talk about it on here, but I can't.
He/she would read it.
All I want right now is to change some things about this certian relationship.
I was happy at the beginning, but now I am not as happy.
Don't get me wrong, I am still extremely happy, but I was happier at the beginning.
So I'm not sure on what to do right now.

On another note, PROM...not looking forward to it.
But, my mom is making me go and that is one memory that I can never get back.
I have a feeling it will be boring, but its whatever.
















(like I said...I want some things to change).

Winterguard

I love it.
But I am sick of Lisa picking favorites.
You can NOT tell me she doesn't.
She won't talk to my when I pass her in the hall or if I go try have a conversation with her.
But she will with some other girls.
And whenever I mess up, she gets frustrated with me.
She tells me not to get frustrated, but then gets frustrated at me. WTF!
I'm not frustrated that I can't catch the damn toss, I'm frustrated that you are get mad at me b/c I can't do it.

I told myself last season that I was not going to do it again b/c of that and other reasons.
But I didn't listen to myself.
And I am all alone this season b/c Kristen isn't doing it.
We have done this together since 9th grade. It's not the same now.

I can HONESTLY say that I am NOT looking forward to this season.
(But I am still going to try my hardest at it for the other girls)

Mmmmm.

So Ansley wanted me to blog.

I have no idea what to talk about.




Oh...I can legally drive now. Yay.
But I need a car.




Thanksgiving was great.
My family from Florida came in and stayed with us.
We all had fun.
I went to Clint's grandmothers in the morningish and spent the day there (and ate).
And we took some awesome pictures (look on facebook or myspace)
Then we went back to my house (to eat again).
Yes I ate twice that day...and boy was I full.




I am dreading school tomorrow.
But 3 more weeks and then I am out for 2 weeks.
3 weeks sounds like a LONG time.




We have the Christmas parade on Saturday.
That should be fun.
And I only have 2 days of Winterguard practice this week. But it is from 5:30 to 9.
It should be fine though.




I can't think of anything else to talk about.




Oh, you know what I love?? That (below)









And that (below)





^^^We were an old couple sitting on the front porch.

Life is good.

BOSS...

That is what winterguard is....the boss.
(i have a feeling that will be new word for the guard this season)
It is intense, but awesome.
I never thought I would be this excited for guard.
I don;t think I have EVER been this excited about it.
Holy crap...who am I and what happen to Bekah???

Oye...

I have so much on my mind right now.
I wish i could just sit down and talk to someone.
and just put it all out on the table.




but i'm scared.

14 days later...

So I have pretty much decided to forget this blog crap.
I gets me nowhere.

So the game in Cairo, Ga was fun.
Got to love those south Georgia hicks.
i added one of them on facebook.
it was awesome.

So following up on my last blog...
i was told you "let it go"
so I guess I have.
I just said "screw it" and moved on to my other problems.

Oh, and I should be getting my license next weekend.
That makes me happy.
I always say I will hang out with people, but I never get the chance b/c I'm too lazy to ask my mom to drive me to Stockbridge so I can.
But no, now I can drive myself.
I don't have a car, but my mom said I could use hers.
She has been looking for a car for me, but no luck.
I should get one soon hopefully.

Wel, It's 2am and I'm kinda tired.

New Moon on thursday (with the boyfriend)
(and just to think the very FIRST time we went out was to see Twilight when it first came out)
I love you babe.

What's up?

I have no idea what is going on.
But I just want to figure it out.
Did I do something wrong??
We need to talk about it,
but it doesn't help that all I keep getting is one word answers.



Maybe I'll just back off...

Blood...

So I gave blood today.
It was not bad at all.
I worried WAY too much.
I would do it again.

Any ways, Aaron is just fine.
The worst of his inguries (sp?) were a shattered collarbone and arm.
It makes me very happy that he is okay.
I am still praying for him though.

Well I am going to eat some cookies like a fatty.
:DDD

Aaron....

My prayers are with him.
All I know is that he was life flighted out of there.
I felt like I knew him, but I know I don't.

It will be a long time before I get on another motorcycle.
That scene keeps running through my head.
I never thought I could cry over someone I didn't even know.

I knew when I woke up that it was gonna be a bad day.
But the competition went fine.
we got 2nd place by 1.6 points....not too bad.
and our drum majors beat out the other woodlands drum majors.

I am going to try and sleep.
I doubt it will be a good sleep, but I can try.

i just don't know

I don't know what's up with this week, but it sucks.
I feel like I lost my backbone.
It's not there.






















I just don't know anymore.

Mama...just killed a man.

So I really should be studying for my History and Math test tomorrow.
I don't think I have ever studied for a history test in my life.
I have no idea how to study for it.
I forgot my English vocab at home so I can't do my sentences.
I'll do them tomorrow in 4th period since Shumick is sick.

Clint, if you read this, you really need to post something. They arent you "awesomely fly-tastic" thoughts or whatever you call them if you dont post anything. So post something interesting!

Our past 2 competitions were pretty awesome. I cant wait till the one this weekend.

I think I am going to go study now....maybe. help???

Hate.

I offically HATE the month of October.
Everything about it.
The competitions will be okay.

I am just so aggravted right now.
I just want to be happy.

Thinking....(bad idea)

So I don't really know why, but I need like an hour of just sitting in silence to think.
no one texting me.
no music.
no tv.
not talking to anyone.
nothing.
absolutly nothing.

i have so much running through my head right now.
half bad and half good.
i just need to figure everything out.

I am not really in the greatest mood.
I am letting things get to me again.
And that will screw more over in the end.

I can't be worrying about this crap now.
I have competitions the next 3 weekends!!!
that should be the ONLY thing going through my head.
but its not.
of course it isn't.

i would just to be a normal person and not worry about every waking thing on this earth.
but no...i have to be a teenage girl and dramatize everything.











and on top of all that...my ankle hurts. D:
gahhhh.

yea...so...

I tend to be a horrible person.
I don't do it on purpose...i just don't think.
I really am sorry....I dont know how many times I have to say it before you believe it, but I will say it however many times I have to.


So anyways, my ankle feels a little bit better. still bruised though. its still swollen, but i can put a little bit of pressure on it now. karma sucks. thats all i got to say.














oh....and i have the best boyfriend in the world.
(just thought i'd throw that out there)

Woodland High School Marching Band

We are amazing.
It's sad that other bands were saying we were the best band out there at exhibition.
and that we should be going to BOA instead of Ola.
Screw Ola. Their show sucked.
It was just a whole bunch of fast out of step marching.
Don;t even get me started on their Drum Majors.
O...M...G!!

So I am really tired. I didn't get home until midnight.
I am not doing any of my work. I will talk to my teachers tomorrow and tell them that I didn;t get home until late and didnt have time to do it.
If they take late points off, then fine. Just as long as I can turn it in.
I'm not really worried about turning it in, in English. But history may be a problem.
Maybe I can cheat off someone tomorrow (shhhh).

well i am going to go take a shower and go to bed.
I am like falling asleep on the key board.

Adios muchachos

Yay...

So I just figured out that my american lit assignment isn't due until the monday after next.
that makes me happy.

and thursday isnt character day. it is nerd day.
I am only dressing up for favorite teacher day and spirit day.
juniors have to wear red. i need to find a red shirt.
i am excited for the pep rally on friday!
i wish there still have a parade. but oh well.

homecoming dance is not canceled and that makes me happy.

ha...this was a crap blog.

Homecoming week!!!

Monday-Twin day
Tuesday-Tacky day
Wednesday-Favorite teacher day
Thursday-Character day
Friday-Spirit day!!
Saturday-Homecoming dance!

I don't think i am going to do Character day. I have no idea what to be. Freshman year I was a chick from Grey's Anatomy. Any ideas on who I should be????

I am really hoping this week is going to be a good week. This weekend was awesome...probably one of the best weekends ever (besides dress shopping).

So I am planning on being Shumick for Favorite teacher day. Everyone keeps telling me to be my mom. She isn't my teacher. Should I be Mr. Shumick??? If not then I'm not going to dress up that day.

Henr County Marching Band Exhibition is next Monday!! I am so excited. I am ready to perform in front of other bands.

It is supposed to rain ALL week this week. I don't think we are going to be able to put the 5th song on the field in time for Exhibition. And I really hope it doesn't rain at the Homecoming game like it did last year! I hate just going to games and sitting there and not playing. I love football but I need music. Ha.

Crap...I just remembered...I have the Bedford reader assignment due on Friday and My American Lit assignment due next Monday. Crap. And I have some kind of practice everyday after school this week. I guess when I get home I need to start straight on my homework. So I probably won't be on much this week.

uhhhh...

so yea...i went to a Creed and Staind concert on saturday.
It was amazing.
I have been lazy ALL week.
Kristen is over for the whole week until like Saturday I think.
We just cleaned 2 of my 3 rooms.
We will clean the 3rd tomorrow.

Beth is having a yard sale friday.
I will be over there thursday night.
I am thinking this weekend will be good, but someone might not agree with me. lol.

well...im going to go be lazy some more.
i just love fall break.

Woooo...

So Friday needs to hurry up and come!
I want my Panda Express with Traci.
And I want the game to come.
I'm not really excited about the performance...just in the stands.
I dont have to play this year, so I can dance to every song.
Especially the drumline songs.
One more day of practice until the game.

Getting my hair done saturday and probably hanging out up at Michelle's shop to help with a bake sale thingy. I am going to be so exhasted.

I want to go to the movies again...hmmmm...i want to see THE final destination.

Wow...why am I not surprised...

I have lost so much respect for so many people today.

(not about Clint!) Just b/c you go off to college doesnt mean you can forget everyone and not talk to them. I dedicated so much to you and you turn around and ignore me? I thought you were going to be my "so-called" brother. First Chad and now you, Ives. You have always been there for me when I was stressed and cried. You said you would always be there for me no matter what. I really need to stop trusting people.

Maybe I was never meant to have a brother. They always turn their backs on me.

This weekend...

Wow, was this weekend great or not?
Friday was horrible.
So bad I had a panic attack in the parking lot and almost with Kate, but she calmed me down.

ANY WAYS, saturday i went out to the race track with my sister and brother-in-law. we walked around with some of their friends. and i laughed so hard watching Adam (the drunk guy and Walt's friend) running around the camp site acting like an idiot. and he said he wasnt drunk.....i highly doubt that. then later after they left, we went to the race. no wrecks. but i still had fun. night races are more fun. they did fireworks. beth and i went crazy. we love fireworks. ahhh...it was great.

sunday i came home and picked up kristen. and then we went to the movies with our boys...and her boy's little brother. We saw halloween 2. it was freaking scary. we had to sleep with the lights on that night. then we went t mcdonalds at 1130ish at night. until like 1230. then clint dropped us off and we came in and got ready for bed.

monday we got up ate lunch and got ready to go back to kristen's house. it was here surprise party. i think it went very well. we all pretty much had a great time....stupid corn hole. i suck at that game, but it is so fun.

now i am home about to go to bed....i just called kristen and told her happy birthday.

well i am going to get a shower and go to sleep.



FOOTBALL GAME FRIDAY!!! YOU SHOULD COME!!! AND SUPPORT THE BAND ONLY!
i will love you forever and ever if you do.

oye...this week sucked.

so i'm pretty sure that i spent my whole friday night crying in my mom's arms.
i woke up this morning feeling like i have a hangover.
I am heading out to the race track soon for the races.
Now i have to go take a shower and maybe scrunch my hair (idk if i want to yet).


nothing since wednesday...wow...love you too.

random input for the day....

i hate crying..

enough said.

another "in class" blog

this one was in 6th period:

"so i'm in english and i just finished my persuasive essay we had to write to practice for the GHSWT or something like that. we had to write about new courses we wanted to take. i just ranted about how new courses are a waste. oh, but my hane writing was so pretty (for once).

i love wwriting in pen. i have more control over my hand. ha. i am really excited about next friday. it is our first football game. it is gonna be so much fun!

i reallt dont know why i do this, but it gives me something intersting to talk about on here. well i have 5 minutes left in class and my pinkie is cramping up. i'll holla at you guys later. duces!"

wow...i said "holla" and "duces"...thats just as bad as me saying "coolio".

today was pretty good. i didnt really do much at practice. im starting to like this back field thing. i can be lazy!

me and jonathon had a great conversation after practice. we havent talked like that in forever! it brought back fun times.

well i have a pretty good amount of homework that cant do itself....so i have to help.
*says in Nick's country accent* bye now!

why is everyone sick???

its crazy!
i was sick the first 2 weeks of school.
now everyone is getting sick.
25% of the marching band was out on thursday's practice.
everyone needs to stop getting sick.
i think this is turning me into a germophobic.
im going to start carrying around hand sanitizer.
im NOT going to get sick again.
i was miserable.
so people...STOP KISSING PEOPLE!
haha, just kidding. i dont think i could do that.
so i know if i cant stop doing that then some other people couldnt.

oh and cheating is bad.
dont do it.
:D

CLINT!

I miss you...a lot!
I don't think you realize how hard it was to say good-bye they day you moved in.
Yes, I am a corny person when it comes relationships.
And I have told you that before.
I have my corny moments.
And right now is one of them.

I really do miss you and I love you.
You need to come home.

I love you, baby.

so...yea.

This weekend was fun.
Reesie's party was amazing!
I had a great time.

Labor day weekend will be awesome and suck all at the same time.
I am going to the races.
And Clint is coming home and I hope be able to see him.
I guess that is what I get.
Ugh.

I'm not in the best mood right now.
This f***ing sucks.

Bordom in US History...

I got extremely bored during the lecture in 5th period today so I wrote something that I was going to type on here and post. It is completely pointless.

"So I'm sitting in my US History class and we are talking about coloization and my teacher just said something about ghost children. I have no idea what that has to do anything.

I am writing on the back of a flyer thingy for class elections. I think it's a waste of time. I threw away 2 flyers.

We are also talking about natives and Indians and I started singing a song from Pocahontas. I really want to watch it now. I think I will later. Then I can watch Lion King. Hmmm..."


Yea, thats what I wrote in 5th period today. Like I said...pointless!

So I might be going to a "rave" this weekend (atleast that is what she is calling it). I think it will be so fun. She told me I could "dress the part"...I'm not really sure what the part is.

The next weekend...I'm not sure what I'm doing. Sanchez said something about hanging out that weekend, but I haven't heard anything. But the weekend after that (the first weekend in September) will be AMAZING! I am going out to Atlanta Motor Speedway with my sister and going to the race on Saturday. I might spend the night there with them in the camper Friday night. But I know I am Saturday night. Then Sunday I will go home and pick up Kristen and she will stay with me for Labor Day.

I have to go do my Physics homework now. I think I might cry. I hate this class. But it is better than AP Chem.

My computer is being stupid and the chrager for the laptop is broken. This sucks!

Hmph...

Today completely sucked.
I start of the day by getting my [horrible] test grade back in Physics.
Then I go to band...enough said.
then I go to lunch....I wanted to shoot my brains out.
Then I go to us history and the people in that class are stupid (most of them).
and AP lang was boring as crap.
and Trig just confused me.

I'm pretty sure im just going to be glazed over this week.

I really miss Clint.
It doesnt really feel like he is gone b/c I'm not use to seeing him everyday anyways.
but still.
he said he will be home in a couple weeks....he better.
but his dorm is really nice and i like it.
i was scared to use the bathroom though.

just 2 more years until im out and on to college...(if i make it there)
ugh.
well i have a lot of homework to do.
and i want to go to bed.
im not sure if i will get on for the rest of the week, but i might.
just depends on how i feel.

Yea so...

I really don't know what to talk about.
I think this weekend will be a mixture of happy and sucky.
I get 2 more days with Clint.
2 is better than none.
and it's not like it will be the end of the world.

Anyways, school is okay.
Physics is killing me.
Hopefully I will get better at it.
English and Physics will be my lowest grades.
They already are with a 75 in English and a 30 in Physics.
But it is just the beginning of school.
I will have more grades to put in there.

Marching band yesterday was fun.
We got into our uniforms and took a group picture.
And then we went inside and played music.
I really didn't do that much except for conduct a few songs behind a wall with Nick and Kristen Led.
Then once we put the drumline in with the band,
the stand tunes sounded AWESOME!!
I couldn't stop laughing at Andrew when he was dancing and playing Word Up.
And people were laughing at me and Kristen Led. when we were dancing and conducting to September.
Gosh, I can't wait for our first football game! It will be so much fun!

I have to go eat now and take my meds.

Being sick sucks

The first week was pretty good...
other than being sick all week.
i have been sick since LAST friday.
who gets sick the first week of school????
Gahh.

my throat doesnt hurt anymore, but im still coughing really bad.
and i have an ear infection in my left ear and i cant hear out of it.
my mom said if i dont get better by monday then i cant go to school and i have to go to the doctor.
i cant miss practice.
its one thing to be marching. if you arent there, then there is a hole in the drill.
if you are drum major then the people who are counting on you for the tempo get let down b/c you arent there. so i have to be there. i have been pushing through being sick all week. im not going to let it stop me now!

and i hate missing class. especially since i have an AP class this year. and i cant miss a day in physics. i already dont understand it as it is. missing a day would KILL me!

on a good subject..
next weekend will be great.
i cant wait.
a whole weekend with Clint.
my life is great.
and im actually not upset about him leaving Sunday.
atleast not yet.
i think im just coming to reality.
i'd rather him move out and go to college then not to go at all.
(like some people...who are pathetic losers now...but im not saying any names)

First Day of School

It is tomorrow.
Not really excited.
But I am concidered am upperclassmen now.
That's exciting.

Not looking forward to August 16th.
But I will live.
I have had a lot of time to think.

Yay!

I love my boyfriend!
He makes me happy.
(the blog before this...he posted it)

Anyways, practice sucked today.
It started raining.
And people were in bad moods.

I need to stop worrying

REASONS I SHOULD STOP WORRYING

1. CLINT SAID ITS ALL GOOD.


2. WORRYING CREATES WRINKLES


3. WORRYING MAKES YOUR BRAIN SWEATY


4. WHEN I WORRY I DONT TLK IN ENGLISH SO IT SOUNDS FUNNY


5. CLINT SAID ITS ALL GOOD!

STOP WORRYING!! ^SEE THEY ARENT WORRYING^

So I tried.

I talked to Clint about the fading thing.
It was at like 9 in the morning and I was half asleep, but I still did it.
But he said something that made me wonder....
"dont worry cause we cant control the future anymore than the weather"
what does that mean??
Roosevelt said that he was saying that he was saying we might not be together for long.
should I listen to him??? I really need that answer.
Clint also said "it will all work its self out"
What does that mean???
I'm so confused right now.
If Roosevelt is right then I need to start preparing myself for a world of hurt.
I love Clint. Like really love him.
Yea I was hurt with other bf's.
But not this kind of hurt.
I really don't want Roosevelt to be right.
I will just see how the next few days go.


Band camp starts tomorrow.

so many things running through my head.

soooo....im not really sure what's going on.
me and Clint seem like we are fading, but
that could just be me being paranoid.
i really hope it is me being paranoid.
that would kill me if I lost him.
I wonder if I should talk to him....good or bad idea???
if I do...I'll wait a few days to see if things change.
He has been out of town for a week and it has driven me crazy.
and he has barely talked to me, but i understand b/c he was with family.
I dont know.
I don't want things to fade!!!

any ways, tomorrow is going to be fun.
i'm going to see Harry Potter 6 with Zach.
and then marching band meeting!
i cant wait for band camp.
i am so ready!
i just havent done ANY of my school work.
crapola.

this wasnt very interesting.
i need to stop thinking.

Please!!

Just grow up!!!
Is it really that hard???
I guess it is for you.
Jeezzzz.
What you think is funny....
is not normally funny to other people.
Sorry.

3:50 am posting...

So i'm sitting here talking to Ansley on AIM.
I feel kinda high right now.
I have to get up at 5:30.
I might just not go to bed.

Me and Ansley are talking about mostly marching band.
and how much we want to MURDER Ola!

Now she is talking about how she is in love with Emma Watson.
she is crazy i swear!

DANGIT!!! I keep forgeting to turn on my straightener.
let me go do that......
ok i turned it on.
finally.

So I am meeting the girl, Rachel tomorrow.
She was on Crown guard this past season.
Ill post tomorrow saying what we did.
I can't wait to see what she has to show me and the advice I can get from her.
I never thought I would be so excited to learn.
Oh wait...it's band stuff.
Of course i want to learn it.

Blah....I dont know what to talk about now...



DENY THE PUMPKIN!!!


SAY NO...

TO PUMPKINS!!!!

Deny the pumpkin.


Say no to pumpkin, kids....it will only eat you.
i promise.
its bad.
very bad.
very,very bad.
SAY NO!!!!!
...deny it............NOW!

What if....

What if I choke out on the field when fall comes around?
What if it not all it cracks out to be?
What if my summer work doesn't get done?
What if my classes are harder than I expected?
What if I slack off like I did this year?
What if he goes off to college and loses his love for me?
What if the turkey really does drop?
What if he finds someone else?
What if we drift apart?

I don't want any of that to happen.
I hate it when I think about these things.
It always gets me upset.
I have one more week until my summer is over.
I think last night was the last time I will see him for a while.
I probably will see him before he goes off to college.
I just miss him a lot.

I don't want school to start.
But I want band camp to start.
I don't want to do my summer work either.
Gahhh...I really need to stop thinking.

stupid.

so i didnt think it would upset me....but it did.
why do it that way?????
grow up!
maybe it was for the better.
i hated the way they acted.
ugh.

any ways,
my cousins are coming in tomorrow.
its been a year since i last saw them.

so i only have a week and a half left of summer...
a week and a half left of Clint being home....:'(

today was a good day until now.
i hate thinking.

today kinda sucked.

not all of it sucked.
seeing Clint didnt suck.
but everything else did.
i dont know i have been in a mood today.
i just get those random days.
its weird.

so i found out something that i really dont like.
but i cant say anything b/c i dont want to start anything.
i just dont want to keep it in knowing that it is going on.

ugh.
and it aggravates me when people ignore text messages.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i think i am going to get some sleep.
im too grumpy right now.

"my little darlin is a...firecracker"

i need to stop listening to country music.
no i dont!
hahahaha....now ICP is on.
it's sad i know all the words.

today was fun.
i surprised clint this morning by showing up at his house to go to his college with him.
for his compass test...
which was only FIVE questions!!!
we all thought it would be like 50 questions.
but no...we were 45 questions off.
it only took him like 20 minutes.
but we still had fun.
i think we yelled "deer" a thousand times.
hahahaha.
i'm "supposedly" a good luck charm when it comes to seeing deer.

well lets hope i can go to sleep tonight since i am only running on 2 and a half hours of sleep from last night.
i took a short nap...but "someone" woke me up. oh well.

now country music is back on.
ha.

So now I have to watch what I say on these things.

Ha. Certain people now know my email and password.
haha. oh well.
i never say anything bad about them anyways.

today sucked.
i have nothing to do all day.
my parents have been in bad moods.
i really hope i can get out of the house soon.

Susan and Chris leave for Florida on thursday for their anniversary.
it seemed like it was not that long ago i was making a fool of myself on the dance floor at the reception and crying my eyes out during the wedding. HA.
those were the good days.
i kinda miss them.

so my internet is about to mess up.
great.
ill check ya out later.
duces.

I'M BACK!!!

Gosh, it has been awhile.

i finally have gotten the laptop back.
and if i were to type everything that has been going on since i last posted...it would never end.
long story short...pool party, Clint, movies with Clint, Hanging with Clint and Chad and Taylor, Spending the night with Taylor, the guys taking us out to lunch, extreme midnight bowling with them, kiss. i love my life.

I have officially fallen in love with the days March 22nd and June 12th.

I'm looking for a job...havent heard anything yet, but i'm still trying.

not really sure what else to say.
:D

"5 hundred 25 thousand 6 hundred minutes...

how do you measure a year?"


3 days left of my sophomore year.
summer is just a reach away....

i like big butt....stanky leg...

Clint came over to make a CD for his graduation party.
and now all the songs are on a playlist on my windows.
i was just singing i like big butts...and now i am doing the stanky leg in my room.
white girl cant dance...

guess i got to make a fool of myself saturday at the party.
oh well.
ha.


i love not having braces.

such a confusing day..

most of today was pretty good.
then my mom started being a jerk.
other than that, it was pretty good.

awards are tomorrow.
i dont really want to go.
but oh well.

i really need to do my english study guide thing.
the faster i finish it, the more time i have to relax.
so i think i might start it.

oh yea, how could i forget the concert?
last night's concert went pretty well.
i think it sounded pretty good.
Clint came, and it made me very happy

i think im going to go start my english now.
loves ya!

Mmmm...

i love just chillin at Clint's house.
we always have so much fun.
I helped him with his English project.
It looked pretty darn good.
i just got home.
and i think Clint fell asleep without telling me goodnight.
oh well, i will see him tomorrow.

Anyways,
Last concert of the year is tomorrow.
it is going to be amazing!
I can't wait.

Well i am really tired.
i think i will go to bed....maybe.
goodnight all!
i love you!

la la la la....

so i am pretty much bored. i finished my homework at school.
and i dont feel like getting up to turn on the TV.
and my boyfriend is probably asleep...so i dont have anyone to talk to.

last night was the Europe 2010 meeting. i am pretty sure i will end up going. yay!!!
i cant wait...except for some "bumps in the road" that i need to clear.
Ansley...you know what i mean.

band banquet on monday went pretty good.
Clint came, i think he was bored.
i am just glad he came for me.

the band concert is sunday. Clint is coming. im excited. that shouldnt be as boring as the banquet. im kinda nervous about the concert. i have a solo in the Lord of the Rings quartet that i am in and a solo in jazz band. and i have a one measure solo[ish] in the chamber group. oh well...i will get over it.

school is over in 11 days. i cant wait for summer!!!!! FREEDOM!!!

sorry this isnt juciy gossip. im not involved in any drama right now.

such a random though :P

ok...my bad for not being on here for a while.
now i really dont know what to talk about.
well i went over to Clint's yesterday and we had a great time.

today was mothers day.
didnt really do much.
went over to my uncles house.

band banquet tomorrow.
boyfriend is coming.
and i am actually wearing a dress.
yea...Rebekah Michelle Steiner is wearing a dress.
[all ansley's idea]

well i have nothing else to talk about.
duces :*

marching band!

so this past weekend has been great!
i made drum major!!!!!
yay!!!
but im trying not to be big headed about it, so i dont say much at school about it.
anyways, this weekend was fun.
i did some fun things.
i went to josh's house and went swimming and played Wii.
and on sunday i went on a motorcycle ride to some park thingy.
it was great.
my week has started out good.
i hope it stays that way.

o...kkk...

so this week has been bad.
that could be my fault.
it probably is.
found something things out this week that i wasnt so happy about.
but its not the end of the world.
life goes on.
so ive heard that im overly concieded and that everything that is done should be about me.
i love it.
i know there are somethings that i tend to be concieded about and thats my fault.
everyone can be like that.
i dont like being the center of attention, so why would everything be about me?

anyways, S&E was GREAT!
we got a 1!
i was so happy.
we all deserved it.

Clint's mom is in the hospital...having surgery.
i have been worrying all day.
lets hope this week is better.

section leader and drum major auditions this week!
im nervous.
what ever happens, happens.

late night posts

so its about 1 30 in the morning.
and it is so Ansley's birthday!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANSLEY!!!
sweet 16. got to love it.

anyways, i had prom on saturday.
it was amazing!!! i had so much fun.
Clint is the best ever!
when we were slow dancing...i wanted to be in his arms forever.
this relationship feels different.
im not sure if thats normal or what.
i feel right when i am with him.
ahh...i dont want to screw this one up.
the thing that sucks is that he is going to collage in a few months, but by then i can drive.
so it wont be too terribly bad.

today was monday...it was a pretty crappy day.
i hate it when mondays start off crappy b/c then my week is crappy.
i should be getting my sax tomorrow [tuesday].
it i dont...then whoever i am doing S&E with...we are screwed.
i could borrow tingles....but he might not let me.
that will be my last resort.
if the store doesnt give me back my sax tomorrow...my mom with go all crazy on their asses.
she almost did today.
i had to walk out.

well i really dont know what else to say....
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN ANSLEY!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

this is ridiculous!!!!

UGH! so i havent had my sax for a few days. no i find out that they can do half of it for $350 or all of it for $700. and my mom is mad about it. she wants to take it somewhere else. but that will take 3 weeks. i cant go through class without it for 3 weeks!!! and Solo and Ensemble [S&E] is next weekend. i think i need a instrument [preferably mine!] that weekend. or i can wait till summer to get it done. i dont want to play something that sounds like a piece of crap. all i asked from her for christmas and my birthday was to get my sax re padded. but NOOOOOO...she goes and buys a whole bunch of other crap. its not that i am not greatful for her doing that. i just didnt want her to. i only asked for one thing. all my presents could have paid for my sax. i am so aggravted right now. mostly bc of S&E, i dont want to let my partners down. i have dedicate myself to work with these people and now my sax is being retarted. and i would say that i would go without getting it re padded, but this thing hasnt been touched in 10 years. TEN YEARS!!!!!!!! we bought it brand new. it went through collage marching band, collage band, and now high school band...and a few high school marching band. i think it is in pretty bad shape. GRRR!


anyways, yesterday was Easter. I had a blast! played some basketball and volleyball. i almost beasted in basketball, but i beasted in volleyball. i even spiked it and hit Clint...oops. i am competetive when it comes to volleyball....ask Ansley. hehe. but we played volleyball with a soccer ball....it hurt really bad. my wrists are brusied and i broke a vain, but thats not new for me.

i really hope all this band crap gets worked out. i dont want shumick mad at me bc i cant play for a long time. [even though i am getting a lot of things done for him this week]. i just want it to be back to normal.

i am so stressed! the stupid research paper for english. i have only written my intro for it. i dont really want to work on it tonight, but it is due thursday. i wish it was due friday so i could turn it in on monday since i have that field trip. i will just work my butt off for it and do my chem homework this weekend since its due friday and i wont be there. haha. i am blowing off all other homework this week.

good news is that friday is prom. im nervous and excited all at the same time. i wont know anyone but Clint. and that scares me. and i am scared that i will be too shy to dance since i dont know anyone. oh well. we will just see what happenes. and i am also going to the car and bike show that morning. hope i see people [best friends] there. well maybe i should go work on my paper...*sigh* i love you all [even though Ansley is the only one that reads my blogs] so in other words....i love you Ansley. haha.

Weeeeeee.....[random]

Lets see...what do we talk about...?

So, tomorrow is Easter. I am going over to Clint's grandmother"s house. My mother is aggravating me about cleaning and my paper. Grrr. I wish she would let me be.

Oh yea...Me and my mom were coming home from wally world and there was a cop. The freaking cop car was black with gray writing. And this was at NIGHT!!! Cops can be so shady. Who can see a cop car that is black at night??? Really? Come on now.

I love my life...and everything in it. I have wonderful friends. And even though I dont get along with my family...they are great too. Yea I have drama and crap, but everyone does. That is what makes life, life. And I love it!

So I was recently told that my "country" accent has come out more and more each day. I cant tell. Maybe once I go back to school, people can tell me. Ha. I guess I can shut up now. Whoo hoo. Well HAPPY EASTER everyone!!!! I love you all!

hmm...my first blog :D

i finally made one of these thingys.
i have been reading Ansley's for who knows how long.
its spring break right now...im bored like always.
and i really have to pee. :DD

i cant wait till tomorrow. i get to go to Clint's house for dinner and just chill over there. i dont want to clean my room but i may have to.

prom is next weekend. i cant wait! i am not going to know anyone there. hopefully i wont get too shy.

i really dont know what to talk about on these things. i guess i should go figure out how to work it and crap like that. i have a feeling i might bore people....oh well.