2010!!!!

It is here.
This is my first blog post of 2010!

I have started this year off great!
And i want it to stay that way!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

almost there..

a year and a half until I am out of this house!!!
I just want to get out.
That's it.
I need my own life.





Oh, and I wish I could tell people what I truely feel.



end of story.
the end.

I'm not obsessed.

So while I am waiting for my movie to load I just decided to post something.

Everyone I know (other than Kristen) goes to school with their boyfriend.
I don't. And honestly, I am glad about that.
B/c if we did, we would have gotten on each others nerves.
And it would have killed me if I was stuck at school by myself after he graduated.
But I have realized I do not need to see him everyday.
I have gone a month without seeing him before.
It sucked, but I survived.
Yes I love him and I love pending time with him, but if we were stuck up each others butt, then We wouldnt last.
We have our own lives to live.
Someone is trying to get in between us, but I am not letting that happen!
I care about him too much.

But any ways, exams were this week.
I got a 94 on my physics final.
an 88 on my spanish final.
I'm not sure about my 2 band finals yet (probably an A).
a 95 on my history exam.
Idk about english yet.
and a 68 on my math (grrrr, not happy)
I'm mad about my math grade b/c I had a REAL A in that class without the 5 points.
But now I don't. I have an 87.

I am not too happy with my final class grades in any of my classes except for band.
I guess I have to try harder next semester.

So I am offically on break. 2 weeks baby!!!!
I really hope 2010 is a good year.

What I have decided on.

So it is exam week.
I have 3 exams tomorrow.
I haven't studied yet, but I will.

But I have decided to back away from "you know who".
I am starting to get obsessive and I am worrying about stupid things.
So maybe backing away will help.

I had a heart to heart conversation with Susan on the way home today.
She has opened my eyes to a certian relationship.
So now I have some things to thing about.
I would talk about it on here, but I can't.
He/she would read it.
All I want right now is to change some things about this certian relationship.
I was happy at the beginning, but now I am not as happy.
Don't get me wrong, I am still extremely happy, but I was happier at the beginning.
So I'm not sure on what to do right now.

On another note, PROM...not looking forward to it.
But, my mom is making me go and that is one memory that I can never get back.
I have a feeling it will be boring, but its whatever.
















(like I said...I want some things to change).

Winterguard

I love it.
But I am sick of Lisa picking favorites.
You can NOT tell me she doesn't.
She won't talk to my when I pass her in the hall or if I go try have a conversation with her.
But she will with some other girls.
And whenever I mess up, she gets frustrated with me.
She tells me not to get frustrated, but then gets frustrated at me. WTF!
I'm not frustrated that I can't catch the damn toss, I'm frustrated that you are get mad at me b/c I can't do it.

I told myself last season that I was not going to do it again b/c of that and other reasons.
But I didn't listen to myself.
And I am all alone this season b/c Kristen isn't doing it.
We have done this together since 9th grade. It's not the same now.

I can HONESTLY say that I am NOT looking forward to this season.
(But I am still going to try my hardest at it for the other girls)