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One day I could have a feeling that makes me so happy and that I want to feel like that for the rest of my life.
But another day I could have a feeling that makes me want to be alone and find something else that would make me happy.
I dont know if this is normal or if it always happens the first time.
It is obviously one of those days that I dont really care.

I am surprised about how long this has gone on.
And I have been happy for the most part, but I think I might be falling into that "curse."
Kristen knows what "curse" i am talking about.

I am freaking 16. you cant expect me to act your age when are clearly older than i am.
you cant understand me or what i go through during the day b/c you arent there.
you are nowhere near me. you are living your own life. i have my problems with you but i dont just blurt them out to you and make fun of them like you do to me. one day you will realize some of the jokes you tell are hurtful. i couldnt tell you any of this b/c you would say "omg...its not that big of a deal. stop being a over dramatic person." you dont understand me! I am a girl. I am 16. 2 things that you are not. I dont understand you and you dont understand me. i love you to death but you dont understand.

maybe i am just too young. maybe i am thinking too much into it. i dont even understand anymore.